must be something else waiting for you..

why oh why?
you ever see yourself making the same mistakes.
different people..same shitty situation.

maybe its the fact that you asked me to go somewhere with you when you couldve asked one of your friends.
or the fact that you text me very frequently.
or the fact that you seemed to rest your arm around my waist before i left.
or the fact that you hug me a bit too much.
i could be wrong but i could say that you like me as more than your friend.

to be honest ive seen this go down one too many times.
ive been labeled :grimy, mean, and heartless by guys who decided to like me when i did not like them enough.

i just dont want to deal with it at all. i want to be asexual. nothing.
i want to meet a good looking friend and go from there. maybe some flirting but that is ALL.
i dont have the emotinal capacity for anything more than that.

i think ill decline on tomarrow.
im saving myself the trouble this time.
but i cant help but feel selfish for thinking :"shit, well that goes the only friend i have who is able to go to shows and concerts like me"

im sorry. but not sorry enough