Aim is a validation

this entry should cover it....

alot of things have changed for me. As a person minus the ongoing sadness im a better person. Mature and immune to the ignorance around me. Everything else is pretty shitty though.

So i sign onto aim and immediatly sign off.

Why??

because i dont want to talk to any of these people and my (ex)bestfriend is perfectly content with a bunch of friends and sisters and shit i lack. im not jealous but it's not fair that when a friendship ends im the one mourning it while she doesnt care.

Frankly, it hurts my feelings that it doesnt even seem to phase her

Shes just the white top on my mountain of shit to feel miserable over.

now it's back to lonercity.

i hate complaining in person but online i seem to evolve.

i guess im venting.

Sure im a little crappy.

But theres crappier people in the world...

im a nice person with a good heart.

If someone needs me im there.

it sucks that i dont see anyone there for me.

And no one around to relate to.

So now ill grow up to be bitter...

No surprise there.

i just can't seem to understand how SOO much changed in only a short amount of time.

i feel worse everyday.

Everyday

GLASS HALF EMPTy