"well i guess i had alot of anger in my last year. I hated people. I hated my friends for not being there. I hated my mom for not understanding. I hated the world. I hated school. In fact, i was a bit racist on my own race for continueing to fuel our stereotype. I hated white boys for not looking at me. I hated brooklyn because it didnt house any people i related to.
Alot less hate. But i know how angry i can get. Not punch you in the face anger either. The kind of anger where you spit venom and think of ways to run over your enemy.
So what do you do when you look someone in the face and ask yourself "Do i really know you?"."Do i even care about you much?" Im extremly sadistic and apathetic at times. Someone will joke "you know you could never do it, you loveeee me" they smile and hug you. But all im thinking is actually no I dont, and i definatly could. As a matter a fact I dont even think i like you. Youre annoying. So i dont know where i place myself...i have a number of friends that i count on one hand and probably have 2 fingers left unused.
I think I'm a nice person. Sometimes people tell me that. I do what needs to be done. I might not rub your back and sit with you when you cry for the 15th time but i will get you something small to make you cheer up. If you need me, im there. Need money?Done. But i think i give off a rough exterior sometimes and people forget that.Ive been observing and theres alot of shitty people around lately.I dont know exactly where Im going with this. Maybe im feeling unappreciated. Or not understood.
Geez, i just dont care. It's almost funny. I DONT GIVE A SHIT...about anything and few people besides paramore, getting into a good college, and being happy.
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