so here i am on this lovely morning.
I wish it wasn't so fucking sunny outside, as emo as it sounds i wish it was pouring rain and dark as shit. I like to plan my day into simple things because it keeps me busy and blocks my thinking. I was going to try and type somemore of my book but It's becoming so hard. I write the book in my head constantly and then i just don't feel like typing it or once i get going and leave the computer to come back later i don't feel motivated anymore. Anyway the story is your typical teenage romance, theres a girl who gets into a big depression after her father dies and shes stuck with her selfish mother and drunk stepfather to be. She's completly quiet and loses all of her friends. She starts seeing a psychiatrist but after she doesn't feel any better so after a couple of weeks she has enough and heads to the brooklyn bridge where her Dad brought her as a kid. Before she throws her ass of the bridge she calls her psychiatrist out of panic. Her doctor sends her son who meets her and blah blah lovey dovey crap. THENNNN towards the end the boy reveals he's dying of cancer and yeah thats what i have so far.

I think im going to play dance dance revolution for the rest of the day and blog later. This is life!!!!!!!(sarcasm)