this repressed anger of mine.

after an ok but as usual, long day.
i hopped on the bus with my two friends who were kind of hinting there was something they were keeping from me.
Apparently theres a girl at my school named tiffany who ive known since 6th grade and she's talking about me behind my back and causing rumors.
So in her eyes im a lesbian(among many things) because of my love for hayley and paramore.
(told you know one understands a passion...)
Last time i checked i was straight.
I find nothing attractive about the female vagina, boobs, or the face and hair that comes with them.
If i didnt know this girl, and maybe if she didn't smile in my face, come to my pageant and eat a free dinner my mom bought her i wouldnt care.
But she is.
Another thing i immediatly thought of was "what kind of friends do i have?"
I mean why didn't they tell me sooner?
Thats what friends are supposed to do and i would've told them.
most importantly when my friend HEARD her saying this, why didn't she back me up?

At first i was a mad in my own passive aggressive, goth way. i hate being mad it makes me grind my teeth and wish death on a person especially when my ipods around and some Eyes Set to Kill or Alesana starts playing. It takes alot to get me mad but when I actually do get upset i just explode with like 3 years of repressed emotions. As usual i calmed down and now im looking on the bright side or at least i bit less dark then usual. I'll just remember that i have 2 no good shitty friends and a (ex) bestfriend that suddenly wants to call my mom and find out where im at after 2 monthes.(too late)

Bitter 30 year old with a nervous breakdown?
here i come