im extremly tired but i want to get this down while it's fresh in my mind.

i saw my therapist or watever she is...
for once it wasnt a waste of time. She helped me sort out all my racing thoughts and try to come to grips with my life now and the decisions i have to make.
she also showed me my diagnosis sheet.

Major Depressive Disorder; Reoccuring, early onset.

it was a a validation. hopefully one day i can be happy with out having to have it given through a pill.

right now im feeling a peace which is priceless....