Seein' Red

Friday: Paramore show. twas amazing. it cost me about 60 dollers to pay my uncle to drive me to New Jersey for the show but luckily a friend of mine from the fanclub had waited from 11 am and let me cut the line with her. For once i was in the front and god, it got rough in there. im still fucking hurting....and shit it was hot. I had to let people borrow my inhaler lol. Im 100% sure hayley pointed at me because i was screaming my ass off and i know josh caught my eye everyonce in a while. At the time it was hot and i couldnt wait to get some space but looking back on it. that day was amazing...Paramore was looking at eachother onstage like "can you effing believe this?!?!" there was a rock show in that place on friday...seriously. ambulances had to be called because people were passing out and getting black eyes and the amount of crowd surfers and kicks in the head i got was unbelievable.but i was in the front of a sold out show for my favorite band and i didnt give a fuck. i was a sweaty mess but i would do it again. and i will on wednesdayyyy wooo.

Saturday: I went out to soho with a friend from school to help her look for a job because im really too nice for my own good. It was cool and it was nice to actually be busy on a weekend for once. but at the end a boy came up to me asking me for donations for his basketball team or something and i wasnt gonna give him any money but he had started walking beside me and as i said i really am too nice for my own good. so i look in my wallet and fish out a couple dollers buttt as hes walking away my friend says "thats so nice, you gave him 20 dollers" so i was shocked because i swore that i gave him a couple dollers and i needed that money so we chase down the guy and ask him for the money back or some change. and i dont know if it was the determined look on that boys face or the fact that he kept saying "my money?" but i simply replied "i better get some good fucking karma for this " and walked off. And i felt like the biggest wuss. So i hop on the train and what does my horoscope say.....IT SAYS THAT I HAVENT BEEN STANDING UP FOR MYSELF LATELY AND I NEED TO STOP BEING SOFT. wow kind of makes me believe in horoscopes.....

Sunday: Making stides against breast cancer walk. i really wasnt going to go to this because its been raining for the past 3 days and my bed looked really good when my alarm went off but i decided to go for my grandmother. And it sucked getting there because the train system fucked up and i had to take like 4 trains and a shuttle bus. the walk wasnt that bad. And i managed to find a way back to my home and i ate a sandwich from subway and i have soo much hw to do and i just want to sleep because um i walked 5 miles today and i deserve it.