i wrote this whole post about what im doing and how things are. but it was so unlike me, it was more of a report than anything else and i want this blog to be more than trivial bullshit.

i wish i could tell you about some realistic adventure i had with a stranger i met on a subway. Or how i met this guy who seems wonderful. part of me wants to say i let myself go and went to a house party and ended up walking home at 2 a.m.

but i really cant because my lifes seemingly boring at the moment. When the wheels in my head begin to turn its hard for me to stop them and i dont like to be discouraged. So im working towards going to a place where soul meets body and getting my grades higher. Ive really been working my ass off. And if i havent been doing something for school, Ive been listening to music or reading AP magazine (which is like my bible now). A small part of me likes the stability in that. Do work, try hard, get rewarded. I understand that concept and theres nothing confusing about it. Everything sounds so nice............the crushes, the partys, blah blah blah.

but at this moment right now this is ok with me. Boring is exactly what i need.

but im not that dull, haha. so im going to a nevershoutnever! show on thursday. and im looking forward to it because i really admire that boy...and its good fun music.