This summer was full of life and feeling. It was lonely but full of personal growth. At the start of it all I didn't really think I would be able to be strong enough to become what I want in life. I doubted whether or not I could handle it. But through the hours I spent working at Doghouse I've learned to be in tune with what I'm capable of. I can now proudly say that I kick ass as an intern. I can say that I am THE hardest working 17 year old black girl loving rock music with all her shortcomings on the entire planet. It was in me being told to do something that I know nothing about that I gained courage. It was on those days that I was sent to do errands, finding places in the weirdest areas, not having contact with my mother until I got home at 7 pm that I feel self assure and true. I've learned so much this summer but most importantly I've grown so much this summer. To be bold enough to go into one of the top band manager's office and be able to hold myself in a conversation and to be able to know what I'm talking about. I've never known how rewarding a simple "you did good today" could be until recently. To be told that I'm kicking ass by David Conway was simply a dream.
The next two months will be complete bull. I feel it already. My blog drives me insane. Me trying to make my blog look like a site rather then a shitty blog is a task in of itself. Doing my internship and school at the same time and doing this sat class three days a week on the same fucking days I have school and my internship. Oh, and college apps...oh glory. For a girl who gets stressed out at the drop of a hat it's all too much. But now I know that nothing is impossible. I know now that I am fucking amazing and whether or not people want to see that or not I will prosper. I've already done way more shit then people years older than me.
So bring it on. I take it all with a sigh and a side of Bright Eyes.
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