i opened up a bit to someone.
Nothing changed.
I went to school.
I didnt want to shoot myself. I still dont like it.
It's been a bit weird. I've been so used to feeling like shit. And thinking the world was also shit. And thinking that my life was shittier that now that it's gone i almost miss it. Im so used to feeling a certain way and now it's unreachable. Im still happy to feel better. I actually want to live, breathe, love and be loved. Now i have the chance to live and its my choice to make that life happy or unhappy. i want to feel things. I want to know someone actually thinks im special and maybe wants to listen to me.
Ive pretty much come to the final decision. Im now 75% sure ill be transferring next year to either:
Beacon
Bard
or Barach
i dont see myself with my classmates next year. This is my chance.
on another smaller note. i really dont feel like making up the math homework i missed over the past 2 days and i dont think ill do it.
I'll talk to you, or listen to what you have to say. I care, even if I don't know you, I do care. I care abou what goes on with you, because you're a person, you shouldn't have to be treated like crap or feel like shit. I'll listen if you want to talk. Just e-mail me if you do.
ReplyDeleteI saw you were following my blog and added yours too. Don't be a stranger :]. I'm glad to see someone with a problem being bold enough to get help, that's really respectable.
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