yeah yeah

haven't written in a while.

We had a school wide ice skating trip. Took jofaz transportation!!!! haha

Overall it was pretty good. It didnt rain. Could've been worse.

Blah blah optimistic talk.

After school i went to the "shrink"(i have no clue what her name is)

but i had some time to kill so i picked up a Nylon mag and a book called Running with Scissors.

After which i went to see ______. As usual she didn't make me feel any better as a matter of fact she made me feel worse. How many times is this going to happen? I'm feeling really hopeless, alone, and tired. Public places now seem to make me nervous and uncomfortable and despite how unfriendly I think I appear to be people still come up to me and give me compliments.

Compliments run like water when you feel like shit.

Over the course of the last few days I've had the urge to do crazy things. Steal pills even though i don't take them. I wanna just drive off or go somewhere. ANYWHERE.

thing is theres no where to go and no one to have fun with.

cuz being unhappy is one thing but being lonley is a bitch and the two together is just mind boggling.

I really want to meet new people but it's becoming so hard.

A big part of me wants my mom to uproot my entire life. And i can honestly say i would'nt look back to much. Jus miss my grandma and the train system.

Just move somewhere random like Michigan and start over.

I'd miss this city. I love this city. But i hate the routine and life that comes with it

New people, New place.

More chance.

Im just getting tired of not feeling alive and not listening. Im tired of not going certain places because i'll get shit like "whoa, is it halloween?". I'm tired of the ignorance. I'm tired of people saying "it's gonna be alright" when nothing ever gets better.

I'm tired of people thinking they know briana.

when i don't even know who the bitch is.