while i was at the the first hospital. i admitted i read books that deal with people who are in some way mentally fucked up which led to my mom kidnapping my book "Girl, Interrupted" to make sure i dont get anymore ideas or something completely arrogant.
anyway i stole the book back and theres some things i can relate to. theres a part about how being in a psychiatric ward is like jail but it's also completely free. you don't deal with the stresses of life in fact all you have to do is take your meds, eat, try not to lose your mind and listen. After i got the pill i actually LIKED IT. and then when i got back into the real world.....i lost all the progress. that's how the book was and that's how it is.
all this homework and shit....projects. it's not good for my anxiety. I'm always worried about something or stressing.........i really should be doing this extremely late project but instead I'm blogging.
I'm the same way with books. If you liked Girl, Interrupted and want a longer, more in-depth read you should check out Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel.
ReplyDeleteI can hardly let myself think about the part in Girl, Interrupted where she's talking about her hand and the bones. It like made me feel the same way like I have to see my bones to believe they're there.
That's how I felt when I was in the hospital. I found that I was really comfortable there and somehow I just felt safe. I didn't need to worry about school or any of my problems but once I got out of there it was as if I couldn't function again.
ReplyDeleteBut I hope you find your peace one day.
Hang in there, love.
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