"I am going away for a while but ill be back don't try and follow me. Cuz ill return as soon as possible. See I'm trying to find my place but it might not be here where i feel safe"
-"Misguided Ghosts"
misguided Ghosts is a song off paramore new album "Brand New Eyes". this song makes me think. Theres so many things that must be decided that i have no feeling about. I'm just a ghost travelling on my own and i don't really give a fuck anymore.
this is my private blog right. i can say what i want.
In that case. I'm fucking lustful right now. I don't care about love anymore...I'm convinced that that doesn't exist for me. Heres this boy who at first glance seems perfect for me...piercing, guitar,....hair. but it doesnt feel right. Love is supposed to fall into place...I should be swooning right. It doesnt feel right. Today, today i want to be devirginized. By someone seemingly attractive who i dont have to call in the morning. You will love me just for that time and kiss me like theres no other girl in the world and than leave me alone. because im hot and im a teenager. Normal right? I want to be a women and do what women do because right now im asexual. No action what so ever, not even a kiss on the cheek.
Well....haha looking back on what i just typed i guess im sexually frustrated.
Now dont worry...i will still upkeep my virginity. If there was a hot attractive boy in my house right now than...things would be different. but theres not and i respect myself.
I dont care who reads this.haha
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