ive been fading in and out between the past and present. feeling absolutely torn up inside to just being ok. just so unfulfilled and fed up with everything.
but last night was amazing. it just never fails to amaze me how being in a crowd makes me feel like im grateful to be alive. that the blood running through my veins is valuable. it was such a small venue with an even smaller crowd. And even though the crowd was weak with only one person moshing and barely anyone moving at all i still managed to have an awesome night. As i danced around and shut my eyes. im not quite at the level of "full on dance party on the floor" but im getting there. and the x's on the back of my hands were pretty legit.
maybe ill feel like writing more later.
i don't understand--- my account doesn't update me on your blog anymore. anyhow, i've been going about life outside of the blogging world for a while,but i'm BACK. your writings are lovely and inspiring (as usual).
ReplyDeletealso, i've unpacked all of my life last week, and i found my this providence tee with its super faded autographs. do you still want it?! i wore it once and thought of you, and while i love it, i feel as though it really needs a new home (you).
it has giraffes.
anyway, email me your address (if you want, if it's not too weird, and i'd totally understand if it was) and i'll send it your direction.
i send all my best wishes to you, dear!
-holly
aw man.
ReplyDeletethanks :) youre gonna have to update it everyonce in a while. at least for my sake haha.
yes i still want it. :) ill send an email your way